Me and Big Sissy at 1
As I think about it, this is the longest I've ever gone since we started having children without being pregnant. It doesn't help that I'm in the middle of weaning my little guy. I was all psyched up to wean him soon after he turned 1, but then he had a terrible bout with what seems to be lactose intolerance or dairy hypersensitivity. The mommy/protector kicked in, and I went back to nursing him 3 times a day. Now we've finally settled on soy milk, his gut seems better, and this week I dropped the night feeding. Only one more to drop, and then we're done. It seems so final. The thing is that he's not sad about it like his oldest sister was. He's a little confused but not sad. He is perfectly happy to eat a fun snack and drink soy milk from a big kid cup like his sisters do. He just gets a little confused when I try to rock him. No, this is definitely more emotional for me than for him. That's part of the baby bug, I think.
Little Sissy at 1
For those that have been following along, having another baby is NOT an option. Not physically. Probably not even emotionally. On days like today I feel like I have reached (or possibly exceeded) my patience capacity. So then why do I continue to keep every piece of baby gear and still pause when I pass by maternity stores at the mall? I think it's because being mama to these sweet little ones is the most fulfilling thing I've ever done. I like being needed. And adored. And needing and adoring in return.
Little Buddy at 1
As with all phases, I'm just going through an adjustment. I've never been great at embracing change. I'm sure I'll enjoy the time when they're in school and making new friends too, just as I enjoyed the times of being pregnant and picking out cute baby clothes. I'm just having a hard time letting go.
4 comments:
I getcha... I cried (and you KNOW I don't cry!) the whole time I bought Bub's birthday presents last year when he turned 7. It seems so old. And he's my baby!
You'll really enjoy all the future stages they go through, too, though!!!
Don't want to scare you, but I still get a thrill and a little tingle inside when I look at baby clothes, etc. Think that "mama" urge just never leaves us. And I'm OOOLLLLDDDD! (Older than dirt, some days.)
Lots of hugs to you. I'm still nursing two, my youngest is only nine months, and yet last week I told Carlos that I was starting to think about another one. It is totally irrational, but then, feelings often are. Anyway, you have my complete sympathies.
I admire your motherliness...and your cute kids!
Post a Comment